Lost between two elements
equal parts fire and water.
Do I burn?
Do I flow?
I do not know.
Always alone
on my own.
Caring for others,
Yet never cared for.
A heart so numb
with tears that never fall.
Shackled with pain
A prisoner of my emotions.
Slowly suffocating
I fight
I beg
I plead
Let me go.
Let me go.
Always numb
Never wanting to feel
Not realizing what I had done.
My decision was made for me.
My choices were gone.
In complete darkness
from now on.
Too tired to fight,
In letting go I found the light.
Moving from burn to flow
I let go.
Pouring out of me
a hurricane of emotion.
All the hurt
All the pain
All the lonely
All the fear
Every single one of my tears.
Letting it all go
Numb no more
I am free
To be authentically me.
Connected to the divine
To the goddess within.
Connected to me.
Here I stand
Naked
Vulnerable
Silent.
It's clear now.
Working in unison
Two parts to a whole
Yin and Yang
I burn
I flow.
No longer a contradiction
Working in harmony,
I never thought
That this is where I would be.
Yet here I am
Writing in the diary of a mad man.